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Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Our Song

well others may think it's baduy since it's an Air supply song, but if you listen and try to feel the lyrics of the song, it'll hit you there..right in the heart.. mushines db..gnun talaga pag inlove..wala basagan ng trip.

I want to give it all by Air Supply

here i am again

i've come to see you smile

i know you understand

i have to say again

it's only for a while

And still you're always here

just waiting for my call

o wish i knew a way

to give more than i do

I want to give it all

well it doesn't happen everyday

but it happened to me once before

those early years i threw away

now i only want to hear your voice to make me feel so sure

that's your love is why

I want to give it all

don't the minutes fly

and hours just seems so few

with days apart so long

it's hard to spend my time

when i'm so far from you

and still you're always here

just waiting for my call

i wish i knew a way

to give more than i do

i want to give it all

it doesn't happen every day

but it happened to me once before

those early years i threw away

now i only want to hear your voice

to make me feel so sure

that your love is why

i want to give it all..

Thursday, January 8, 2009

it's that feeling again

it's been a few months back since i've realized and been very thankful being able to move on from another heartache...chubbs and I are now back to being friends and i'm glad we get to say "Hi and Hello's" again..i even gave him a gift last Christmas not expecting anything in return of course..

then from "out of nowhere"..I met him..it was a constant exchange of text messages..he was insisting me then togo out on a date but i refused..i even asked him to stop courting, telling him that i'm not yet ready for another heartache and i'm still picking up myself, thinking and feeling that i'm not ready for a new relationship..so he stopped..

a few week passed,nocommunication,no calls, no text messages,then one evening while on a night shift, a familiar name sent me a message..it was him..

so there goes again...constant exchange of messages..until i gave in.. December 24, 2008 ,around 9 pm in the evening,i decided to give myself a chance...another chance to be in a relationship..another chance to be inlove..

right now,i'm really happy with my decision, he's nownotonly my boyfriendbut alsomy bestfriend and confidante..and i'm ppraying that i'll never regret another decision i've made and i hope the love and the happiness will stay..

Sunday, December 7, 2008

The Sarch for Happiness

If you analyze people's actions, you will come to the conclusion that they all seek happiness. Every act is in fact a search for it, even if on the surface it doesn't look so. Happiness is always the main target.
Going to the movies, eating in a restaurant or going to a party, are motivated by the desire to be happy. Sometimes the movie is not interesting, the food is not good and the party is boring. Then the search goes on. Maybe the next time the search will be more successful.
If the activity is pleasing, there might be a feeling of happiness, and then this activity is sought again in order to repeat this pleasant feeling.
Who does not dream of a vacation in some fascinating location, a new car, a new house, or the ideal match? All people daydream, and some even try to make their dreams a reality. And why is that? In order to be happy.
What about people who endanger themselves by climbing steep mountains, entering unexplored caves, or diving into the deep of the ocean? They too are looking for the few moments of happiness and rapture.
A thief may steal because he loves the thrill of danger, or because he desires to have quick money to spend. He is actually looking for happiness, though in a criminal and perverted way.
The list can be endless. It is the happiness factor that is dictating the behavior of each and everyone. It is sought in many ways and forms. Sometimes though, it is sought in a selfish way, or by hurting other people through stealing or taking by force.
Of course not all actions end in happiness. The motive is happiness, but the results not always bring the coveted desire.
According to some spiritual traditions, we are spiritual beings in physical bodies. The spiritual part is always happy, or rather is happiness itself. The body covers this happiness essence, but it is there all the time. There is a constant desire to be aware of this happiness. This is the reason it is constantly sought.
No matter what activity is sought, at the moment that happiness is experienced, something happens. Whether it is the thrill of arriving to the summit of a high mountain, eating a delicious cake or winning the lottery, there is a common element that is always present.
At the peak of happiness there is a stoppage of the thinking process. There is inner silence. Worries are dropped away. There is peace. The competition or dangers are over. This may last for a brief moment or a little bit longer. In this vast peace we feel happy. It is not the object gained or the successful performance that brought this feeling. It is something internal and independent of the outside world.
Happiness is always here, but covered by thoughts, desires and fears. It is experienced when these covers disappear for a while. When fear or worry come to an end or a desire attained, there is a temporary disappearance of these covers. The ego and personality stop moving for a while, and a great satisfaction and inner happiness is experienced.
In order to experience it on a daily basis, one has to learn to quieten the restless mind. One has to dive inside, because happiness is an inner attribute and is not in the objects or circumstances. It is in this world, but out of this world.
There is no need to search for happiness or to create it. There is no need to have all kinds of outer experiences and actions in order to feel it. On the contrary, everything has to be dropped in order to experience it.
Every technique, which helps to relax the mind and quieten the rush of thoughts will lead to happiness. Developing concentration and engagement in meditation are the main ways towards this goal.
When the ability to have a quiet mind under all circumstances is gained, one enjoys constant happiness, no matter what he is doing and where he is. This is quite attainable, but to gain this peace and happiness you need to work towards it. By making the first step today, happiness will start to fill your life.

Friday, November 7, 2008

another year older...another year wiser?

today is my 27th birthday..so what's new this year ..well i've gained new set of friends since i transferred to 24/7, my team Joguar...but of course my team blade stays in my heart especially my bestfriend JP..(i miss him so much) ...

early this year, i met JUSTIN..whom i shared memorable experiences as well .. though we don't get to send time with each other or even talk , he stays in my heart (hopefully he knows that)..

i've also discovered more about myself as far as being a daughter is concerned..this challenging crisis that the family is going through right now make me stronger and motivates me to persevere and work harder ..

what's my wish for my birthday. . . i'm always praying that i'll find happiness and i'll be more appreciative of the things that are coming along my way .. i also pray for happiness for those people I love the most...

to those who shared with me this another year of my life and for the rest of our lifetime..thank you

Saturday, October 25, 2008

forwarded emails

Sa wakas ay nakita ko na ang aking hinahanap
Sa wakas ay nakuha ko na ang aking hinahangad
Kay tagal ko ng naghintay at nagsunog ng kilay
Ngayon ay masasabi ko na ang matamis na tagumpay
Sa wakas ay nabihag ko na ang aking minamahal
Sa wakas ay natapos ko na ang aking sinimulan
Kay tagal ko ng nagtiyaga
Wala namang nilaga
Sa wakas ay kaya ko nang bumangon sa umaga
O bakit ba ako pinahihirapan ng husto
Ang dami-daming kumokontra
Sa bawat kilos ko
Nasan ns ba kayo
Tignan n'yo ako
Hindi n'yo inakala na ako ay mananalo
Pero salamat na rin sa inyo
Sa wakas ahhh (4x)

...lss ko ito today..visited brewedstories.motime.com and i heard this song from eraserheads...ilang araw n rin nmin pinagchichikahan nila rol, din,zsa at mel cna "francis,joy,faye,ate jam at janis" cno2 cla? sa d p nakakatanggap ng email galing skin, manghula kayo!! hehe

Saturday, October 18, 2008

why am I happy..

for the past few days, alaskado ko sa loko kong TL na c jojo apostol (pero lab ko pa rin!) at ang lagi nyang question eh, bkit daw napapansin nya na masaya daw ako lately. bkit masama bang maging masaya? pag nakasimangot ako napapansin pati ba nmn pag smiling?!

well alam kong mas cute ako pag nkangiti, given na un (lokie a.k.a kapalmuks! wahaha!) pero bakit nga ba?

well sa natatandaan ko nagstart yta ako maging masaya after madischarge si daddy ko sa ospital (that's about after a month and a day). Of course naman db? that's something to be happy about db.. so far lumalakas na cya kumain kaya point na nmn un para mging happy db?

nakakatuwa rin kasi since nag uuwian na ko from makati to bulacan and bulacan to makati, I get to see Angelika everyday and watch her learn and teach her more, another point to be happy db?

i don't understand why people would relate my happiness as of the moment to having someone na nagiinspire o nagpapakilig churva like that (sa mga nag iisip ng gn2 alam nyo cno tinutukoy ko..) pero in reality , hindi talaga ung sole reason..

I have a bigger respnsibility ngayon sa family ko and I'm happy na sa ngayon nagagampanan ko cya..I'm trying my best din to look better (nagpapaputi kaya ako ulit saka nagpla2ntsa ng buhok! san kp!) Pero hindi nmn un masama db? naisip ko lng kc, sa laki ng responsibility ko sa family ko, pti ba sarili ko pababayaan ko, eh d ang dami naapektuhan db?  

so sa mga friends ko , sana maging happy kayo dahil happy ako. 

Saturday, October 11, 2008

missing my chubbs...when is this going to end..

been happy and laughing hard this past few days..maybe because my office mates and friends here at 24/7 has become my diversion for the crisis our family is going through right now..happy for meeting a new friend (our new teammate MEL)..though some of our teammates are teasing me that i'm happier coz he's around...partially true, it's because as i said, i know i have gained another friend..he's like my papi vick that's it

earlier before my afternoon shift started, i saw my chubbs...i pretended i didn't saw him.. i still feel that pain in my heart for us being away from each other for good...then at around 7:30pm i was surprised that i received this text message...

"we may not b lyk b4 & we may have difrnt companions, but i want u to know that i nvr stop being hir 4 u...a frnd u nvr always see, but u always have..."

why is it that when im trying to move on..his presence will then linger.. i hate this feeling...

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

clariz..

today i had to leave dad in the hospital again with my cousin to forward my requirements for the personal loan i'm applying for thru citibank..I was able to get in touch with clariz thru a friend's office mate.. everybody who knows me knows that our family is in distress right now and we're seeking for financial help to almost all places we can imagine and those people we don't even know personally.. I just thought of writing this blog, cause right now, I'm claiming it that God gave me CLARIZ (the citibank loan agent) as an anwer to my prayers, that my dad once and for all would be out in the hospital and we'll be able to get out of this hell called mary the queen hospital...please pray that the loan may be granted..God bless, clariz

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

what's playing on my site 09/04/2008

Jason Mraz
I'm Yours lyrics

Well-a you done done me
And you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks and now I'm trying to get back

Before the cool done run out I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

nice song..


Mmmmhmmm-Mmmmhhmmm, Mmmmmhmmm
(Heeeeey heeeey)

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
I look into your heart and you'll find love love love love

Listen to the music of the moment, people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And it's our God-forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate, our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

(Scatting)
Do you want to come on?
Scooch on over closer dear, I'll whisper in your ear
Wo-ooo-o-oh who-oo-o-o-oh
Oh yes love, love love love love love
Love you love, love you love

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and I laughed

I guess what I be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do, our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Open up your mind and see like me
(I won't hesitate)
Open up your plans and damn you're free
(No more, no more)
I look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours
(It cannot wait, I'm sure)

So please don't, (please don't, please don't)
There's no need
(There's no need to complicate)
There's no need to complicate
(Our time is short)
'Cause our time is short
(This is our fate)
This is oh, this is oh, this is our fate
I'm yo-o-o-o-ooo-ours
Ahhh

Monday, September 1, 2008

adjustment period na naman..

well since i've already decided na mag uwian na ulit sa bulacan, aun nag aadjust na nmn katawan ko sa sobrang pagod..yesterday nag pacheck ako gn BP sa nurse, 90/70..ok mababa n nmn cya, what's new?! everytime na dumadating ako sa bulacan, para na kong pinukpok na bulig sa pagod pero ,wait there's more! (parang outbound lng?!) kasi cyempre pagdating sasalubungin agad ako ng aking bebe powki, so mejo nakakawala ng pagod, kiss at hugs na mahigpit..iba talaga pag dadatnan mo gling sa trabaho ung nag iisang trophy ng buhay ko..sa sobrang pagod pagdating na gabi, now d ko na nagagawa masyado mag isip (although d p rin maiwasan, pero d n masyadow)..tahimik pa nmn cellphone ko the past few days..tumigil na pagt2xt ang chubbs ko..nakakamiss..kakalungkot..so isa pang adjustment un..pero it's another thing that I really have to get used to..