torn

tonight I'm sitting here in front of my computer, home alone and feeling sad..been staring @ my FB page for more than an hour now, doing the usual stuff..playing my applications, checking people statuses and of course waiting for that someone to go online.. before I'm used to sending him a message on the chat box, asking him what happened to his day and sharing my own stories also..we used to laugh and talk about a lot of things..we even call each other before using Skype (coz it's free)...

but for the past week or so..we haven't really been talking and that makes me so sad.. tonight I tried to send him a message..no response...did I lost another friend again? did I just pissed off another person because of my attitude? is someone leaving me again and is off to forgetting I once existed in his life?

a friend told me to just let it go..if the person does not want to be friends with me anymore, then so be it..they're not worth of my precious time..

I should be thinking of more important things right now, Dad's in the hospital and I have a lot of financial distress that I have to deal with..but here I am, feeling gloomy for being ignored.. I'm staring at the "remove from friend list" link now but I can't seem to do it.. I was able to do it before..why can't I do it now? I should have not let a this person befriend me..I should have not shared a part of my heart to him..but I did..somehow I regret befriending a "random" friend on FB capture my heart..that was just silly