goodbye, boss

i'm gonna delete you from my friend's list here on FB...i mean, it just hurts that you avoid talking to me and even responding to my messages..i know im annoying most of the time..but i think that's not the right way to treat your friends..especially those you know cares for you so much..this is the last time , really the last time you're gonna get a message frm me..im not mad..im sad that it had to end up this way..but maybe that's the least I can do to make you happier and give you more peace...advance happy birthday..take care..i'll always wish you well..thanks for everything..boss

--the last and the most painful message you can send to a friend... I feel so broken now..I can't even cry and I don't know how to explain what I feel...it's just really painful...

torn

tonight I'm sitting here in front of my computer, home alone and feeling sad..been staring @ my FB page for more than an hour now, doing the usual stuff..playing my applications, checking people statuses and of course waiting for that someone to go online.. before I'm used to sending him a message on the chat box, asking him what happened to his day and sharing my own stories also..we used to laugh and talk about a lot of things..we even call each other before using Skype (coz it's free)...

but for the past week or so..we haven't really been talking and that makes me so sad.. tonight I tried to send him a message..no response...did I lost another friend again? did I just pissed off another person because of my attitude? is someone leaving me again and is off to forgetting I once existed in his life?

a friend told me to just let it go..if the person does not want to be friends with me anymore, then so be it..they're not worth of my precious time..

I should be thinking of more important things right now, Dad's in the hospital and I have a lot of financial distress that I have to deal with..but here I am, feeling gloomy for being ignored.. I'm staring at the "remove from friend list" link now but I can't seem to do it.. I was able to do it before..why can't I do it now? I should have not let a this person befriend me..I should have not shared a part of my heart to him..but I did..somehow I regret befriending a "random" friend on FB capture my heart..that was just silly